Tried to figure out what the baby steps are to do today. Anxiety about what appears to be a large size of something to be done, multipled by having more than one thing to do (have more than one child I am raising) combined with the ignorance that is not bad, just is, because we all do not know everything about everything. We learn about what comes into our lives, what is added to our lives, what we seek and bring into our lives.

Baby step: visit the community college financial aid office. Yes, this college option for a year or two is way cheaper than the other options, yet it is money I do not have and I want to know yesterday how this will be paid for. No answers other than get the letters sent to them I sent to the out-of-state colleges that are no longer in the running. Also, child did sign a form that allows them to talk to me without her when I reference I have that consent.

Looking for lost item step: something I need for another child, have no clue where it is, thought I left it at work and if it was, someone put it aside. I went there, no one was there, but I could tell people are in and out. What I was looking for was not to be found.

Baby step: I need to get the letter finished I want to send along with a parent referral for private cognitive testing for another child to really know if she has a disability, what it is, make it that she would get services even out of our affluent town if we move or find out maybe she is average and it is the curriculum here.

Baby step: made the call to the bank lady that would help me get pre-approved for a mortgage, what size mortgage, if I qualify. This is a step in the exploration